Why I love my son

I find that the best time to blog is when I have about five hundred other things I should be doing.  My justification today is that I didn't blog last week which broke my promise to myself to blog once a week.  Therefore, blogging must be towards the top of my list of things to do.  Or something like that...

I was going to write about the things that I'm thankful for and how much I love Thanksgiving and how irked I get that it is overlooked.  I reflected on a lot of memories of Thanksgiving and how much I have been blessed.  In those reflections I thought of one of the biggest blessings that I have received this year.  So here it is.

When I found out I was pregnant I cried.  I didn't want to have any more children.  I was frustrated because it seemed like deja vu all over again with not being thankful for the being growing inside me.  Over my pregnancy I dreamt of having a girl.  I did not want a boy.  Brad was even worried how I would take it if we had a boy.  After the crazy delivery I had to ask what I had.  When the midwife finally came over she said "He will be OK".  It took me a minute to register that she said he.   I will admit that I did mourn a little that I didn't get my girl and there are days when I am a little bummed about the fact and do get jealous when other people have girls.  But you know what even in that moment of hearing I had a boy, I knew it was going to be OK and that I would love him with all my heart (which must mean that I have several hearts because I love my other baby with all my heart too :P)

We struggled between two names for him.  I am so glad we chose Matthew.  It means "A gift from God".  There are no better words to describe my little guy. 

Even with the things that have been thrown at Matthew-broken clavicle, bruised and swollen head, circum. that took forever to heal, rashes, allergies, etc- he shows the strength he posesses.  He is determined. 

Matthew is a cuddler. I love that he will wiggle around til he finds the perfect spot in the curve of your neck for his head to fit into.  Now I love that he stretches his arms out and kind of holds me when I holding him.  I love rocking with him.  The feeling of him fitting in my arms is wonderful.  I can the feel the love flowing between us. 

Matthew is so sweet.  I don't really know how to describe it....

I love that my son is ornery.  Just like with Anna, you read in his eyes that he is going to do something silly or naughty. The glimmer always makes me laugh!  He loves to come over and give me a kiss on the cheek.  It isn't a short kiss, but he stays on there.  After a little bit he will start giggling then I will move and start attacking him with kisses.  When he is doing something to be funny, he will crack himself up.  He loves to chew on the spoon when eating.  He will do this then laugh.  Of course we laugh with him.  He likes to grab at my earrings.  I won't be paying attention and will swat his hand away.  His hand goes right back to my earrings.  I swat away.  What do you know, his hand is pulling on them again and by now his giggling at our little game. He freely gives smiles at home and they just make me melt.  I will clarify that he is often serious when we aren't at home.  Must be just like his mom :P

There is not a whole lot better in my day than watching my two little lovebugs with one another.  They adore each other.  After nursing, Anna is the person that Matthew looks for in the mornings.  If he doesn't see her, he will crawl around looking for her.  When she is doing school, he climbs up her chair and starts yelling at her until she talks to him.  When they are the backseat of the car together they make each other laugh.  No lie, Matthew says something that sounds like Anna and I know that he is talking about her.  Whatever she is doing, he wants to be there doing it with her.  I love the fact that she loves him just as much as he does her. They play amazingly well with one another.  Anna will share things with him that she wouldn't share with anyone else.  She is a good little mommy to him.  Anna will beg me to let her "babysit" him.  She is a wonderful big sister.  I just hope that Brad and I are able to continue help them to always have a good relationship.

Some other things that I love about my little man.  I love that he is active.  Matthew is smart.  He talks all the time.  I love that he can look at you and through his eyes he can say "I love you".  His eyes are a beautiful.  I laugh at his blonde hair.  He is so determined and focused.

Some current Matthew stories.

Anna, Matthew, and I were in Anna's room.  I let him get markers because he can't get the lids off.  This day, he went over and got a marker from Anna's desk.  When I turned to look at him he had somehow gotten the lid off and was coloring her desk.  I put the lid back on and heard the lid snap on.  I went back to playing with Anna.  Next thing I knew had had gotten the lid off again and had colored all over his mouth and hands.  :)

Matthew loves to push things around.  Anna has a stool in the kitchen.  He was pushing the stool in the kitchen when I left to go help Anna with something.  When I came back, he had pushed the stool over the drawers were we keep Anna's school books and have a basket for pens and the such.  He had climbed up on the stool and was standing digging through the basket.  Watch out world.

Matthew can not stand to have things on the trunk in front of our couch.  He makes it his mission the clear it off at all times.

I know that I have not in any way fully described the love for my child.  All I can say is that I am so thankful that God has blessed me with Matthew. I look foward to having our love grow for each in the years to come.  I am anxious to learn the lessons that he has to teach me.  I am excited to have a relationship with my son and see how we are able to bless one another.